Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â do youu have daa gutsÂ Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â to love meÂ Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â

Monday, May 31, 2004
1:05 AM

U make moi 'blues' away.. when i m depressed..
U make moi days bright.. nO matTer where u r.. or hOw tired u were..
U will pLanNing fEr OUR fUtUre..n rEfusEd tO SplUrgE on a bIke eVen thOugh u gOt uR liceNsE.. whIle i m hErE tiNking aBt thE dIffErenCes iN Us tAt mIghT leAd uS tO a separate path..
GuEss i wAs wRong..
Ur love fer me is dEeper than i thOught.. it oveRcOmes qUalificaTions.. mOi carEer.. i m tOo sEnsitive and had lumped love n qualifications tOgethEr..
SoRry mOi dEAr dArling~ i wiLL wOrk hArd tOgEthEr n mAke oUr wiSh at 28 yrs Old coMes tRue.. *mUaCks*

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Saturday, May 29, 2004
2:15 AM

TeLL mE tELL mE.. wHiCh PrIvAte uNi sHouLd i gO?? i M in a LosS...

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Friday, May 28, 2004
12:51 AM

Hmm.. results are not good... *expected*.. din put in much efforts too.. NTU is gOne... i M oUt lOokIng fEr jObs..

*sOrRy dArlIng.. Can't gO inTo NTU le.. HoPe i dIn lEt u dOwn.. MaYbe u shOuld fINd sOmeOne else tAt cAn gOes NTU together wIth u..*

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Thursday, May 27, 2004
11:08 PM

Tat's it.. i *exploded* today.. Arghh..

Everything went the wrong way on me.. Boss do NOTHING abt the behaviour n attitude in that stupid idiotic cafe.. Can't format moi com.. coz the product ID given to me is WRONG.. Fight with moi brother over the usage of computer.. Yeah.. he flare n wanna beat mi up when i wanna to use.. Mess with mi n he dies... HAha.. i chase him OUT of the house with the choPper.. *i sound like a mad woman..* Yah..I AM one..sOOner or later...

Wished i cOuld kIll hIm...
Or raTher.. Kill mOiself.. i HAD eNuff.. Enuff.. EnUff.. Argh
Even now, begging ur friends to help u on something also have NO USE.. U have to depend on URSELF... hAh.. There's NO FREE LUNCH in this world aniway..

If i dun DIE... i wAnna MOVE OUT sOon..
*Forget about further studies.. JUs find a JOb.. n mOve ur dAmn bOdy Out oF thE hSe!!*
So *little* bRothEr.. UR wIsh iS gRanTEd.. HaHA..

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A hug is all i need.. *hopefully* to drive away all my tiredness in work and the stressfulness in life..

"Politics" in workplace = upset+ tired + sick (1)
Uncertainty of the future= Lost+ depressed + low morale (2)
Unstable emotions of moi darling= worried+ sad + frustrated (3)

Equation (1)+(2)+(3)= upset+ tired+ sick+ lost+ depressed+ low morale+ worried+ sad+ frustrated= Highly Explosive

*Fairy gOd-MothEr.. fAiry gOd-mOther.. iF onLi u ExiSts.. TuRn mE intO a pRincEss.. n cHanged mOi life intO a fAirytAle. And gIvE mE wHat eVeRy pRincEsses are yeArniNg fOr.. "a hAppiLy eVeR aFtEr..."*

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Wednesday, May 26, 2004
2:05 AM

My Prom fOto...

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I just turn 20 on 25th May.. Tis would mean more responsibilities and more goals to achieve.. especially in career and further studies..

Had a great day out celebrating with moi closest frends in Poly.. they had walked together with mi fer the past 3 yrs of ups and downs.. i'm really very lucky that i could celebrate moi 20th bdae with them.. hope it would go on fer years..

We went to Suntec Fish& Co. for lunch.. *yummy* and the crew sang mi a "fish" version bdae song.. and a free brownie~! It's nice.. but as hard as a biscuit!!! The table is in a mess, as though we just had a Brownie War. HaHA, Catch "Shrek 2" too, Cute, funny and touching.. it's a meaniful cartoon..

Today is also mOi dear twinnie bdae~~!! Heez.. hOpe he had fun on his bdae tOo~ Next yr.. we will be shall celebrate together.. *excited*

Just received a bdae card from moi darling today.. it's the sweetest thing that i had received from him.. Heez.. his first "love letter" to me... *darling, it's a great surprise from ya.. i m very touched.. n moi tears dropped..* Thankz everyone.. fer making moi bdae such a memorable one.. *Muacks*

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Monday, May 24, 2004
11:24 PM

30 more mins.. n it's moi BIRTHDAY~!~! "haPpy birthday to me.. happy birthday to me.. happy birthday to me.. happy birthday to ME~!"

I had an enjoyable day out celebrating with moi McCafe friends today.. they bought mi a manicure set as moi bdae gift.. knowing that i always paint my nails whenever i go to work and they also bought mi a strawberry cake.. coz they know that i LOVE pink very much.. Heez, So sweet of them.. that's why.. they are the only reason that i have stayed in McCafe to work..

Anyway, this bdae comes with a double happiness.. COZ it's moi 8th Monthsary with moi precious darling, xMingz..

*Darling, i wanna to wish ya a Happy 8th monthsary~!! i really hoped that ya will not think tat u r a spare tyre of someone else le.. after all, we are finally together after so much obstacles.. u should know how i feel towards u.. =P I wanna to celebrate moi every bdae with ya.. so i dun wanna to lose u coz of ur insecurities... *

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1 more day.. n it's moi birthday~! Heez..
Kinda of excited now abt tml, as i dunno how moi frends in Mccafe will sabotage mi.. trying to think of a place to go where they can't sabo mi.. Heez..

My darling gave mi a surprise on Friday nite with a birthday cake.. but i let him waited fer mi fer 2 hrs.. coz i was out with Sharon shopping.. n i din know he booked out tat nite.. *heart-pain* Heez, of coz i m very happie.. Sat went to watch midnite movie with him, Troy... it's a nice show.. but too much kissing scenes!!! I tot it would be somehow similar to Lord of the Rings.. with all those grand army fighting against each other.. hEez..

Recently.. moi darling gets jealous very easily.. and he got sensitive when there are guys calling or msging mi.. when in the past it would not bother him at all.. Part of mi, i feel happie.. as this would show tat i meant of more importance to him.. but i am afraid that tis would get worse.. ... but i have faith in him tat he will overcome this fear soon.. ...

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Tuesday, May 18, 2004
12:32 AM

My laptop is still spoilt.. terribly sad.. din managed to blog fer so many days.. Life is still so meaningless.. without the knowledge of moi result of my uni application. I m just like floating in a big sea.. there's so many floats ard fer mi to catch.. yet i can't choose anione of them.. becoz there's a string holding on to my leg.. this type of situation sucks.. Sucks.. SUCKS...

Hiak.. turning 20 in 7 days time.. getting older.. and soon.. i will be a lao nu ren le.. hiak.. engaged in a disagreement with moi dar dar over moi bdae celebrations.. guess i was kinda bad too.. to compare how he celebrated his ex bdae with mine..

*Dar Dar.. i dun ask fer those grand celebrations like u had planned last time.. all i wanna is something that ya have tot of.. even if it's just a simple date like going out fer a dinner n movies.. i would still be very happie as long as it's UR idea.. n not MINE.. gers dun like to make the decisions all the time.. =( *

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Wednesday, May 05, 2004
1:40 PM

ExAms... eXaMs... ExAms.... i m dead tired~
Got killed by a subject which i tot was the easiest with the most straightforward answers.. argh... I HATE FROG~!~!~! My A has gone... so faraway~ *dreams shattered* Hiak... 1 last paper to go... P/s: *vAmpirE* pls duN let mE hate you....

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Sunday, May 02, 2004
11:49 PM

*Yawns* I m getting tired le... but, there's no time fer mi to slack n relax.. gotta to buck up on moi revision even more..

Darling bought mi a necklance from SK fer moi prom nite~ hMm.. i m *beaming with haPpieness* of coz~ Heez.. it's moi first diamond pendent.. though the 3 diamonds is onli 0.03 carat each.. but it's still diamonds rite? Heez.. as long as it is given by moi darling.. i will love it... The design is nice, but the pic is not able to make the pendent stands out..

Darling, i wanna to say " Thankz alot fer the necklace... i love it alot.. n hope next time ya wun spend so much money on me again.. Ya dun earned much in NS too.. " >.*

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Happy belated Labour Day~! It was a great day for me~ I just had dinner with moi dar dar's family at Long Beach Resturant in East Coast Park.. Dinner was good.. delicious n yummy~ hEez.. There's total 9 ppl at the dinner, moi darling's grandmother, father, mother, brother, bro's gf, sister, sis's bf, him n me!! Woah.. tat's alot of ppl~ His mum said that every dinner.. the family had gotten bigger n bigger.. Haha..

After the dinner, we went to a temple in Loyang..
The temple faces the open sea and operates at 24hrs everyday.. it consists of Chinese, Muslim and Hindu gods~ yUp yUp.. it's big... n it even have a basement carpark!! Tis is the first time i went to the temple.. n it's sure an eye-opening experience fer mi.. >.*

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Saturday, May 01, 2004
1:32 AM

*Angry* *Sad* *Pissed Off*.. yUp yUp.. Moi laptop is DOWN again.. can't start explorer, it just hang practically every application i try to run.. ARghhh~ Despite having it hospitalized for a week... it still not yet RECOVERED!!! Such a lousy service in moi schOol.. *hOpeless* In the end, i still have to use moi brother's comp...

Just had moi first paper on Friday, feels that it's still quite manageable.. not as tough as i had expected.. hMm.. so hopefully i can get a decent grade of B+ and above.. heez..

Took some pics with moi digital cam.. experimenting with different functions.. and yeah~ the pics are nice.. Heez.. and of coz all the pics are of ME!!!!! Haha.. might sounds abit zi lian kuang.. AND i must admit... i m VAIN~ haha bleahz..=P

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